Sunday 11/25/07 11:30 am eastern time
sitting on the rv right now on the way to North Hampton, Massachusetts. haven’t written in awhile, been writing more songs than blogs. lots of stupid things have been going on, but i’m trying to stay positive, bc thats all you can really do…saw a line today that made me laugh though…said something like “no regrets, only lessons learned”…i just found that funny…i have plenty of regrets in my life…alot of those mistakes that led to those regrets i wish never happened and knew the lesson before it was learned the hard way…i guess what i’m trying to say is i think that line is a load of shit…maybe its just me…maybe i’m the only one who wishes there were no regrets period…and maybe i’m one of the only people that would rather learn a lesson without making a mistake to learn it…make sense? no? k, nevermind then
we played in New Hampshire the other night, and afterwards stayed with an old friend of mine (drummer in an old band) in Boston. I’d never been to that city before, but realized that night and the next morning that its definitely the most beautiful city I’ve been too…just the landscape, the buildings, the people, everything seems refreshing…i just hate the cold ass weather…i’m thinking about going up there and just staying a couple of weeks on vacation early next year just because…get a hotel for a couple of weeks, and just write…thats all i’ve been doing lately is writing…i’m finding out alot about myself through some of the new stuff i’m writing…sounds weird, but its true…when i sit down with pen and paper, usually i have no secrets by the end of whatever i’m writing
we only have six shows left, and then I think I may be going to Canada for a couple of weeks…that should be cool…Christmas is one month from today, and I realized I don’t really have a Christmas tree this year…i already know what this Christmas is gonna feel like, but like i said, try to stay positive, right?
everyone please keep Hawthorne Heights and the family of Casey Calvert (one of their guitarists) in your thoughts and prayers…Casey was found dead yesterday before they had soundcheck, I can’t even begin to imagine what they’re going thru…we’re definitely thinking about those guys
just know that I love you all…at the end of everyday, we’re very thankful for all of you…each and every single one of you…
“I let you down, but you pulled me under”
until next time, love to you all
<3
nixon